The way for me to rediscover my inner self in through blogging. After all those years spent in a Chinese curriculum, I felt like I was homogenized. My critical thinking ability was paralyzed. Class of 60 students spent every day together doing quizzes, roting Marxism and Mao/Deng Theory, cracking difficult Maths problems. My creativity and imagination were buried under textbooks.
Having stayed in the States for two years is a mind-blowing experience. Hearing people criticize their country liberally, challenging their system and attacking the corrupt election procedure were exhilarated. With this new freedom to rethink about Chinese/Western society, I am more curious every day. I also reclaimed the passion for learning more about public policy and international relations, watching history documentaries and writing blogs. I delve deeper into the matters of my life and the worldview that shapes me. Blogs help me to lead an intentional life, develop an eye for meaningful things and become a well-rounded person.
Another meaningful thing about this blog is that I want it to be the zone for Chinese to stand up and speak out our voices. Recently, there is news that Chinese ethnicity is being made fun of and belittled in front of the public eyes. I was ashamed by this. I am proud of being Chinese and I want to share my pride in my culture to this country. I decide to write, to tell the stories of my Chinese friends that they wouldn’t tell in their second language. The western world deserves to know us better from our voice instead of mainstream propaganda.At the same time, I also encourage more people to write no matter in what language . It will help you discover your hidden potential and build up more confidence.
As times goes by, I realize that I lead a meaningful life with my unique view and have something useful to share through blogging. I become more observant and give weight to the personal growth that I am experiencing. Hope this blog will change both me and your life.